Charm Life

[bbwmelsc3]

PROS: I have fun! I love it! I also get to go Heel Shopping! Lots of lingeire! Lots of sex toys! I love using my check for new ones all the time! I meet new people to shoot with from time to time! I also have made a lot of friends with some of the charms! I actually started feeling better about myself! What I hated about myself people love! I hated my weight and big belly! Then tried not to show my belly! Thena guy emailed saying he loved my rolls! Lots of compliments on my big body in emails has helped my self esteem too! It also spiced up things with my marriage! As I am undressing for the camera it turns my husband on!

Cons: I can't shoot at home right now! So I have been shooting at hotels! Currently living with family who has no clue what I do! So its hard to get alone time to shoot! I also have totes and totes of porn gear! So I have to find room for new things! Ive became a heel and lingerie hoarder! Also, When I go to a store I think oh this would be fun in a update! So have to buy it! So, that adds up!

[DelilahSC3]

Many years ago, I had a few sexy lil pics taken of me and just shied from it cause I just didn't feel like I was at all, sexy or that really nice looking. I was very self-conscious about this fat or that...and it was hard. A bf got me to take more pics tho' for him, sexy ones, in various outfits and then he used to tease me about modeling and introduced me to a site or two and then he up and posted them and I was so shocked and upset and then I saw the feedback and just blushed and felt so different! I began to see myself through thru their eyes a bit. I still shied away tho' until years later...different bf, tore up my self esteem and a friend of mine introduced me to SC and got me to join and I started seeing myself again thru different eyes, thru the eyes of the camera and oh wow how my pics changed and I started to go from hating 70 out of 100 pics to liking 70 out of 100 pics! LOL
I left due to stalkers but then decided to come back after that other bf and I ended and tho' my self esteem wasn't so destroyed, I still love the emails that all the sweet fans write to me and I've had fun with the updates now. I've learned to draw my boundaries better and not let anyone twist my arm into doing anything I don't want to or do not feel comfortable doing.
I have lots of things I want to do, just need the time to edit and do them.
This is kept quiet from most who know me, and that's ok, I am having fun with it!