It's so funny that when I post an update that I absolutely despise, THAT is the update that gets the most attention and email compliments.
When I started SC over 8 years ago, I was so nervous and insecure, that I rarely smiled. My first updates made me look like a deer caught in the headlights.......ummmmmmm cuz that's what I felt like.
I've always been insecure about my body. And I probably always will be.
I got my boobs at age 13. I was flat chested one day and DD's the next! It's like they just popped out there overnight! I admit, it was nice when I was younger. I went braless all the time. Didn't mind walking along and getting my boobs really jiggling. But apparently my mother's warning came true.
She always used to tell me, "If you don't wear a bra now, you'll hate it later."
Yep, she was right.
Now it seems my boobs fall further down my chest every year. Besides the fact that they got even bigger! I see these women with perky little tits and I'm so jealous! But, I've discovered via SC fans that "saggy" tits are indeed a turn on for alot of men. I guess it's just the women that don't like them
Even so, they're still one of my insecurities.
I'm careful how I sit, pose, etc when I'm shooting my updates and I'm always asking my husband, "Does this make my tits sag?" <whatever pose I'm in> Which honestly, HE's no help at all because go figure, HE LIKES big saggy boobs!
My other "insecurity" is my um..........curvyness. I never had a flat tummy, even when I weighed 107 lbs <yeah, I really used to weigh that way back when the dinosaurs were still around.....lol!> But now, it's like I have this extra padding everywhere! ugggghhh!
Bottom line, it's definitely a very good thing that the guys like all the things we hate about ourselves, because doing porn on the web takes alot of bravery! Especially if you don't like your body. I'm so grateful to all the guys that write and tell me they find me sexy. Because it's thanks to them that I feel alot more confident about my body and don't despise it quite so much. Although, I'll be honest and say that I still wish sometimes I had perky boobs that weren't trying to droop to my knees!